Plans

Have you ever noticed how you make plans and you can’t quite do it all?  Well this is me on a daily basis.  When I started this blog I decided I was going to religiously write on a daily basis so I could share and document all of my feeling.  HAHAHAHA.  That didn’t happen.  While I am not sure what happened to all of my days I am sure it had something to do with husband, children, work, dogs and the need for sleep.  🙂  Here is my summary of the last couple of days.

Diet-  Well I am down to 5 pounds, most of water weight we all lose the first couple of days we diet.  However, I am doing the Advocare diet and I feel better.  It is basically supplements, protein,  certain veggies and low carb intake.  I hope I can continue on this kind of healthy eating.  However, I usually sabotage myself because I stress eat.  I need to learn healthier habits….

Gym-  Well speaking of healthier habits.  I did not get my fat a** to the gym all weekend.  I work Friday, Saturday and Sunday in the ER.  I work 12 hour shifts, so the gym is closed.  However, I did not walk or do anything but work and play with my kids.  I am not sure how to change this.  I am forever drained after work.  Any ideas?

Lastly work-  I really tried to stay positive.  However, by Sunday afternoon this was gone.  I am not sure I should really put all of my thoughts about work in writing to the public.  Some of it would seem harsh.  However, I will say nursing can at times drain you to the point you are jaded and tired.  It is hard to deal with everyone at their worst.  I chose this profession and most of the time I love it, but I have seen so many changes in humanity.  I get tired watching people die because of poor choices such as drugs and alcohol.  It is hard watching a mother did by her child’s bedside because she overdosed on illegal drugs for the 10th time, all the while begging her child to get help.  It is hard to watch a domestic violence victim ask for help and after working hard to get her safe she calls the significant other to pick her up.  It is hard to watch the children come in with abuse and neglect.  Most of this I can deal with, I am actually very honored and privileged to take care of your loved ones.  It is just somedays are harder than others.

Thanks for letting me vent.  I am hoping to create some kind of schedule this week for myself.  I am still trying to figure out how to fit the gym in my schedule.  Any ideas.